God doesn’t send bad circumstances but he will use them for his glory.
This weekend was the toughest I’ve had. I can usually keep my emotions in check but I was just a complete mess these past couple days. Since Friday I’ve been sitting in a nursing home/er caring for my harmoni. I still see my harmoni as she was in her 60’s and 70’s, who took me shopping at valley fair. I idolized her as the bold and independent woman I’ve known my whole life. But seeing her at 81 years old, in pain and helpless on the hospital bed was a reality check for me. She’s not some invincible, immortal, fairy god mother. She’s human.
Even though the situation is shitty, somehow, there was some good that came out of it. I spent A LOT of quality time with my parents this weekend. I mean 6+ hours a day, I usually don’t even spend that much time with them in a week. We talked, prayed, ate, and laughed together. I realized how beautiful my parents are. They really have good hearts. Like you know that one fruit of the spirit- goodness, yeah they embody that completely. Jeez I’m wrecked right now. In a good way. Just overflowing with gratitude because I got really lucky being born into the family that I’m in.
You know, I thought there was a great work that needed to be done in my family. But I’ve been being shown that the work that needs to be done is within me. I should really write on tumblr more. But basically my mom rebuked me like hard core, like rocked my world, in a good way last week. And since then my eyes just have been opened to the way I treat my family. Isn’t it weird how sometimes it’s hardest to express love to the ones you’re closest to? Okay this post is allover the place. I have so much crap and studying to do, feeling a bit overwhelmed. But that’s it for now. Cheers to a new week and a new chance! I pray ya’ll have peace this week that surpasses all understanding!!
“Grace, Grace, you are worried and upset about many things, but few things are needed— or indeed only one.”
Believers in humble circumstances ought to take pride in their high position James 1:9